Journey through Faerieland

Today has been a good day and for that I am grateful. Michael and I woke up a bit late. My mother apparently textmessaged me about her dog, whom she was supposed to drop off for me to take care of and then take back to her house before we went to the UU church for our "Spirit in Practice" class. Well, fussy Rasputin didn't want to come over. She was texting me to take him out to pee before the church. I texted her back that I was "in a meeting." O_o Okay... I have no recollection of doing this and have never really been "in a meeting." So it must have been related to a dream I was having... So, sleepwalking, sleep-eating, sleep-talking, now sleep-texting. Unfortunately I did not take the poor dog out to pee:( I'd assumed my mother took him to work with her, which is allowed where she went today:( Oh well, he was okay.

Church was fun! We made lists of what we thought prayer were and what we thought meditation were and how we thought they were similar and different. Then we did a quiet meditation and then an eating meditation (a tangerine). We did a hymn and a reading. We did a couple of worksheet/readings, too, and were given Unitarian Universalist prayer beads. After the church thing we bought cheap cocounut hair conditioner and I read The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis.

I bid on ebay>_>. I allowed my auctions to all end with me losing except the one that was the sweater that reminded me of Mary Margaret Blanchard from Once Upon a Time. I followed Michael's advice and bid my max bid at the end of the auction. I tend to be very impatient and lose the auctions at just a dollar to two above the maximum I'm willing to pay! Very frustrating! I also put in a higher max bid for the mint Anthropologie floral top I love so much that I posted a picture of in here. It will end tomorrow during the day when I will probably be busy, so I just put in the bid and got it over with. The last one ended this morning just $2 past my max bid-_- I should have just paid more. It wasn't worth the hassle... I could have saved elsewhere. If I don't win this auction hopefully there are yet more tops.

Amber (surprisingly) left me an ebay message so I called her, but she was eating. She said she'd call back later tonight, but I want to go to bed early so I will probably call her soon.

My uncle just adopted an eight year old rescue Silk Terrier who is not house broken. His name was Binky (really??) and my uncle re-named him Ernie, after Earnest Hemingway.

Day 11: Favorite tv shows

Glee, Merlin, Xena: Warrior Princess, Hercules, Legend of the Seeker, Who's the Boss?, The Facts of Life, and many animated series

Day 12: Something you don't leave the house without

My cell phone

( 30 Day Meme )

Today has been a good day so far. I didn't feel anxious today, even before taking Ritalin LA. My mood has been stable. My mother cooked and we ate around 1pm. Then my brother, Michael, and I played Disney Princesses Uno. Michael won most of the games and I won the least:P We watched South Park episodes, too. Now Michael and I are going to put up my Christmas tree. Tomorrow after my mother drops my brother off at work she, Michael, and myself will go to the library (I'm desperate to read the Harry Potter books now after seeing the last movie!) and to Town Square in Wheaton. There I will go to Victoria's Secret, which will probably be very crowded, but hopefully not as crowded as the mall Victoria's Secret will be. I haven't heard about any special in-person sales. I know their semi-annual sale isn't here, at least. I'm hoping that will help keep things under control. I am only going there for (hopefully!) one pair of underwear. I love the design but it's sold out in my size online. I have seen them in two Victoria's Secrets this month but didn't buy them then because they didn't have a couple other designs I wanted and I wanted to get 5/$25. I did buy 5/$25 today online because of free shipping today and that's when I found out the underwear I want is not available in "pink snowflakes":( $8.50 seems expensive for a pair of underwear (and I kind of want to get two if I see two in my size>_>), but I am very stubborn and really want them. I spent too much this month because there were so many sales. I at least don't feel too bad about buying Lost, season 6 for $24 on amazon.com earlier (with no shipping paid), because now it's back up to $41 on amazon. I'm sure a lot of stores will have it cheaper than that for the sales, but I haven't yet seen it cheaper than $24. Tonight we will watch the Charlie Brown Thanksgiving special and the Garfield Thanksgiving special. I hope everyone is having a great day today, whether or not you celebrate Thanksgiving:D

Also my brother and I were talking about Harry Potter (he loves it) and which house we would be sorted into. I would probably be Ravenclaw (though I didn't used to think that, despite "book smarts," other than art, being about my only strong point). Luna is in Ravenclaw and I can identify with her a bit, so I suppose that works. I insisted my brother would be Slytherin (trying to kill my mother and me, threatening to burn the house down, etc.) and he said no way, because he isn't evil. I brought up the aformentioned offenses and he looked at me like I was crazy. My mother was in the room and said he seems to have no memory of those sociopathic years he spent on cocaine and dxm. Three years ago he spent Christmas, New Year's, and his birthday in jail. He also didn't want to play Scrabble with Michael and me (which is why we played Uno) because he said he played it too much in jail.

Today my anxiety and depression have been under control. My weight obsession is a little present, though... My people obsessions are okay (and it doesn't hurt that Amber emailed today after I emailed her). Though I know I can't depend on other people for my happiness and sense of peace... My Who's the Boss? obsession is fully back, which is slightly problematic because it's on 4 hours a day and I'm doomed to sometimes miss episodes. I don't know how to record things with my current vcr. It's pretty old, I think (it was Michael's). I can't wait to see when Angela and Tony finally get together and I know it is coming up soon. I read a book today and I've started reading another (both young adult fantasy). I'm doing some laundry right now. Michael is mowing the lawn and then we will watch He-Man.

I'm feeling pretty happy at the moment. I got an email back from my friend in Spain today and yesterday even though it had been taking her longer to respond. Hearing from my friends always makes me feel better. I have lots of books to read, a painting to work on, and more anime to watch. Xena isn't really upsetting me anymore and I'm just enjoying it. I do find it interesting, though, that the actor who played Ares (and who died shortly after Xena ended) has an autistic son. I'm hoping Michael mows the lawn a little later today. I really want to order some Xena comics, but I want to wait until I see how much money I have left after my eye appointment tomorrow. I need more contacts. I miss them. I don't like myself in glasses. Soon I will upload pictures from the trip to the theater Michael and I took on Saturday.

I'm in a very nostalgic mood today (though I am most days). I watched some My Little Pony commercials and songs on youtube today and watched some episodes on one of my dvd's. Then I decided to watch the first Care Bears movie, which I'm watching now. It reminded me of the Care Bears I had that my father gave away without my permission. And then I thought of the giant Wish Bear my mother gave me on my 20th birthday. I was very depressed/entering a mixed episode then and my mother gave it to me with a note that she wished for me to feel better. My mother can be so nice to me... I have Wish Bear next to me right now and have been hugging her. My favorite Care Bear is probably Swiftheart Rabbit, one of the Care Bears my father gave away. Michael gave me his Swiftheart Rabbit, though. And I bought a small Swiftheart when the Care Bears anniversary was going on a few years ago.

Today mostly Michael and I have been watching The Mysterious Cities of Gold, which was made in France, Japan, and Canada and aired on Nickelodeon in the US. I used to love it as a child and it made me want to be an anthropologist (though I didn't know the word "anthropologist" then). Watching this has really made me want to go on a trip to Peru and Bolivia. I used to want to go to South America to see the ancient ruins, but I've let it slip from my mind for a long time. Hopefully someday I will get to go:)

My nausea has mostly been under control today and I ate plenty for dinner without feeling ill. I think cream sauces and the like would make me quite sick, but I had tomato sauce on pasta for dinner and I didn't feel sick. I am kind of excited about buying Izzy's birthday gift (I love buying gifts), though I feel bad that it will probably take awhile to arrive. Next I'm saving money for my eye appointment and then Michael's ring. I am contemplating getting a digital camera at some point in the near future, too. I still have to take my art photographs... I will probably get to see April tomorrow evening, so yay for that, too!

I have to call my psychiatrist soon and display my displeasure at his leaving without warning for two weeks when I'd just talked to him previously and he told me to call him "sooner to when I'd run out" for a medication refill. Now I need a Geodon prescription (and probably a small Zyprexa prescription for emergencies) before I see him July 29.

Michael may be going home today so he can pick up my last happiness book from his library. I'll see him in a week. We will probably go to the wildlife center first to see animals and maybe walk down one of their trails. I'm going to return to re-reading The Chronicles of Narnia and then read the last book April lent me. I should paint borders around my paintings, too... It also would be good for me to clean the house a bit today. I'm still sleeping a lot. It may be that way indefinitely. I was dumb to buy half a season of Glee when the full box set is coming out later on. Maybe I will give away my first set or something. I'm still trying to get my mother to watch Glee; her brother really likes it.

Today I visited April and we walked to the comic book store (at least I got some exercise in!) and we watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer. They were actually episodes I was familiar with. I should watch more of the series someday. It was also fun just talking to April. It's nice to get out of the house and I usually feel better in the presence of other people. I've got her interested in The Happiness Project, too, now:-) I hope the book comes into the library before Michael comes over to my house. I got my dates confused and Michael is coming here on Friday and then the following Saturday is when we go to the zoo and then his house. That's fine, as long as I have his company! I'm not good by myself. I also ruminate way too much which can worsen my mood or make me focus on unpleasant things or even concoct long streams of vitriol I want to say to someone whom I feel has been cruel or selfish. I'm working on all of that. I'm going to try to be less critical of myself and of other people. I will try going through the motions and acting happy-ish to see if that can turn my mood around when I'm feeling rather negative. I'm going to keep making short-term goals for myself that lead to longer term goals. I'm feeling pretty hopeful and good today.

I wish I were as good as Mr. Rogers!

http://edition.cnn.com/2008/LIVING/wayoflife/07/28/mf.mrrogers.neighbor/index.html