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15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
A rabbit because I feel like a prey animal, I'm small and skittish and physically weak. I'm creative (a fertile imagination). I have a lot of anxiety and fear. Rabbits also just happen to be my favorite animal.

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Day 25 – A first
This summer was my first time having birds overnight, let alone for months -- cockatiels and finches. It was nice getting to socialize with them and give them head scratches. It was nice to hear them sing. However, they were a lot of work and could be awfully loud, so I have learned I am not a bird person (at least for pets that I personally have to care for). I do love them, though! Genny is so sweet!

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unico_love: Snow White (innocence unicorn)
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry

Animals being threatened, killed, or hurt in any way.
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My heart is racing and I just woke up from a dream about people shooting a cat and her kittens and three birds because I asked them to stop feeding the animals cookies and chocolate...
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I miss my father. That probably doesn't make a lot of sense, since I have PTSD due to him, but there were a lot of good times with him -- especially before he got totally crazy. Even after he got totally crazy he had his good times. He used to be close to our cat Riff Raff, a big semi-feral black cat. Riff Raff would yowl and rub against my father's legs as my father stood in the kitchen, listening to the radio and drinking beer. I guess those weren't fun times *for me*, but I find the fact that my father liked a cat to be endearing. We're also planning to go to Disney World (hopefully September, but possibly August so my brother can go to culinary school in the fall). My father always took us to Disney World. I feel guilty that the last few years we went I was cold to him and refused to ride with him and even convinced him not to go on a ride with us once. What he did was wrong, but he was mentally ill... I know he really did love all of us.
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Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy


Mrs. Bates!

Day 7: Favorite movies

Disney movies (especially Beauty and the Beast), Amelie, American Psycho, Best in Show, Miyazaki movies (especially My Neighbor Totoro and Kiki's Delivery Service), Zoolander, Mean Girls, the Shrek movies, Enchanted, The Princess Bride, Willow, Labyrinth, and Legend.

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Today while on our way to do errands Michael and I found a timid, scared looking cat sitting right by the busy road. We stopped and picked her up and went to the nearby animal clinic to see if she was microchipped. She wasn't. They took down the cat's information in case someone called. The other clinics are closed now and Monday we will call them all (and Animal Control) to alert them to the found lost cat. She is tan and brown stripes with white patches and blue eyes. She is very docile, purrs, likes to be held, etc. She looks well-fed and well-groomed. She is clearly a pet and not a stray. Michael is putting up pictures of the cat with his phone number around the area we found the cat. My mother won't let us keep her at her house:( Mrs. Bates already hates other cats (and misbehaves because of it). We can't take in another cat. Our house is too small, smells like cat, our current cats don't behave, and we don't have the money. It's hard enough affording three cats. I'm hoping the owner shows up; otherwise we may have to take her to the no-kill shelter near where Michael used to live:( Though I do think she'd be adopted quickly because of her looks and gentle demeanor.
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Today at 8:30am Mrs. Bates was taken by my mother to be dropped off at the groomer. I was worried they'd say her matts were too severe and we'd need to take her to the vet to be groomed (way more expensive). I also worried they'd say she was matted because I let her get fat and I was irresponsible with her, so I really didn't want to go there. I was still really tired when it was time to pick her up, so my mother went alone and just wrote out one of my checks (we're both on the account).

Mrs. Bates didn't like the bathing so they skipped that and just shaved her down. She was very noisy, as usual, with a raspy whine, but she would be quiet as long as her nose or head was scratched. The groomer really liked her and said she would take Mrs. Bates if ever we didn't want her. She didn't try to bite or anything. The groomer said it's difficult for cats to groom themselves in the area that was worst on Mrs. Bates and she didn't say Mrs. Bates was too chubby. In fact, shaved down she doesn't look fat at all. I've been thinking she was overweight, but she probably isn't right now. When I took her to the vet last year the vet didn't think she was fat, but I still thought she was. Though he did think Bunny was fat, which I don't believe. She's a very long cat and her tummy droops a little, but her sides are quite thin.

I will have to take a picture of Mrs. Bates shaved down.
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Today I took my cat, Joey, to the nearby groomer to get his claws trimmed. He was very scared of the dogs and was much more well-behaved than with the vet. The groomer said he was a Maine Coon! Nobody ever told me that before. From what I've read his behavior is very Maine Coon-like (a lap cat, very tolerant of being picked up in all different ways, purrs loudly and like a chirp, very affectionate, etc.) I have to try to brush my cats daily to prevent them from matting or shedding as much. Mrs. Bates is very matted. I may take her to a veterinarian to get groomed. I don't know yet.

I was a bit on-edge earlier and was making Michael anxious with my anxiety, so I took a Klonopin. I feel better now. I've been reading a lot of today. I might do a tarot reading soon and hopefully tonight we will be going to the Japanese Marketplace. I want to get a sandwich there:-) Maybe even two and I will bring one home... I still have extra cash left from our trip to San Francisco.

Tonight Michael and I will watch the anime version of "The Tales of Earthsea." I read the books and liked them well enough. The writing style wasn't the most interesting to me, but I liked the ideas and themes actually in the book, though.
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Yesterday was our last day in San Francisco. We checked out of the hotel a little after 11am and left our luggage behind the desk so we could go to Fisherman's Wharf. We went to the aquarium, which was nice. Moon jellies again! And we pet the string rays. We returned there later in the day. We walked up and down the wharf, taking pictures, and looked in various stores. I bought myself a pair of lavender lounge pants because they only cost $10 and the ones I do have and wear to bed have holes in them from the cats' claws (mainly Joey's). There was a store called "Fairy Tales" with lots of Amy Brown and Jessica Galbreth prints and fairy figurines. I was very tempted to buy many things, but they were fairly expensive and I don't have much room for more collectibles. I did get a small migraine after the aquarium -- headache, lightheaded and dizzy, and severe nausea. I took 8mg Zofran and still felt nauseated for hours. It was also very sunny and hot, which wasn't helping. I wore a sweater and was sweating like crazy. We ate breakfast at a doughnut shop and lunch/dinner at In-n-Out Burger. We saw the sea lions one last time.

Then we headed back to the hotel and they called a taxi for us. It was kind of expensive, but worth it. My feet were really sore, I still didn't feel well, and it was crowded. We were at the airport a long time and I read and tried to sleep on the floor. Our flight was at 11:55pm and full. We couldn't sleep on the airplane (I never can). Michael's OCD was pretty bad starting when we got to the San Francisco Airport and was bad at O'Hare when we went to get our luggage (which took awhile). My mother arrived and took us home and we went to bed. Mrs. Bates seems to be feeling better for right now.
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Today I was worried because we had to take a bus and then the subway and I was worried about transitioning. I also often can't understand the driver over the intercom and we did almost miss our stop coming back from the zoo. Michael also lost his directions and had to search for them in the subway station, but he found it. We went to the San Francisco Zoo today and spent several hours there. We didn't buy anything, due to the costs. It was really nice to see the mother koala holding her baby:-) I don't know if I've ever seen a koala in-person before. We took tons of pictures and I will post them to Facebook/here after we return home. I was quite cold earlier today, though I was warm on the trip home. We got off the bus a bit early to walk to the pizza place Michael had food from Friday that I really wanted. I had two slices and felt very full and had some stomach cramping walking around after that:P We then walked up Lombard Street and took pictures from there (it's very high up and a great view). Then we walked back to the hotel, where I am now. I've been eating watermelon and pineapple. Michael walked to a nearby pizza restaurant to order himself a pizza (he's obsessed with pizza).

Tonight we're going to walk along the wharf and take pictures of everything lit up for night. Michael saw it last night when he went back out to Walgreens and I didn't see it. We also forgot to bring the camera when we walked the wharf yesterday early evening, so tomorrow we'll take some pictures of that during the day and go to the aquarium. Because of how crowded the buses get in the late afternoon and the gum chewing making Michael need to listen to his mp3 player (due to his OCD) I'm going to ask my mother if we can take a taxi back to the airport tomorrow. Public transportation went pretty well here, but we've almost missed stops and we will probably be on the public transportation around the time people are getting off work tomorrow and that sounds way too stressful.

Overall, today has been good:-) I've been a lot less obsessive (just worrying about the public transportation stuff). I'm not having my people obsessions at all! I think it's due to the change of scenery, because even when I kept busy socializing or volunteering I would still have bad obsessions back home. The best place for me back home is my mother's boyfriend's house.
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Today was a pretty good day, though right now I'm quite depressed, partly because I didn't buy more water for my cats and partly because Mrs. Bates still doesn't seem to be feeling well. She seemed to feel fine yesterday, but we think she's constipated again... And she only wants to eat the dry food, not the wet, which makes her more constipated.

Today Michael and I woke up early (after going to bed very early) and we took the bus to Japantown. There were performers all throughout the day for Japan relief and we donated some money. Also there was a garage sale nearby for Japan relief and I bought a used copy of Disney's The Hunchback of Notre Dame on dvd. Michael bought a J-pop cd. Japantown was much cleaner than Chinatown, but things were also much more expensive. There were lots of neat stores, though! I had chicken teriyaki and rice for lunch. It only came with chopsticks, which I don't know how to use, so I think I used them upside-down and sometimes I just resorted to my hands:P In an anime store Michael bought us a not too expensive stuffed Totoro. He also bought me a little zodiac dog figurine (my Chinese zodiac animal is a dog) and a little print thing that has Japanese characters and the English translation under it -- it says "Dreams come true." There were a variety of sayings or words to choose from.

We also ate chocolate-filled tai yaki (a fish-shaped pastry) from a stand. It tasted like chocolate chip pancakes and was pretty good. Later while exploring the outskirts of Japantown we shared chocolate frozen yogurt (there was no vanilla and I wasn't sure I'd like the "original" flavor, though we should have tried it).

The bus ride back to Fisherman's Wharf was quite crowded. Afterwards we bought Michael and his mother sweatshirts similar to the one I just bought yesterday. Then we went back to the room for a little bit. Then we went to Fisherman's Wharf again and walked down the streets, ate dinner at In n' Out Burger (which we don't have where we live), and we walked further down the wharf where you could see Alcatraz well. We forgot the camera, though, after returning from Japantown (where there are cherry blossoms in bloom!), so we'll go by the wharf another day and take pictures there. Michael and I walked through some of the surrounding streets, browsing, and we bought sliced pineapple and watermelon from Safeway (a grocery store). The staff of the hotel just brought us up a refrigerator free of charge so we're keeping the fruit there. Michael was going to buy me Ghiridelli dark chocolate filled with mint or raspberry filling (we also passed the Ghiridelli building/restaurant on the wharf), but I decided I would rather have fruit instead. I'm still quite full, but will eat more of the fruit for breakfast. Tomorrow we plan on going to San Francisco Zoo. I think I'm going to get ready for bed now.
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March of the Penguins. A penguin was being eaten and I got hysterical and had to leave the theater. I don't deal well with "the circle of life" which is the major reason I don't watch more nature documentaries.

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Partly taken from an email about today so far:

Church went well and Michael's OCD was fine there. During the offering they played a Tchaikovsky piece:-) I love Tchaikovsky. Next week the sermon is supposed to be on Transcendentalism and Buddhism and I desperately want to go, but Michael will not be here to take me. I asked my mother to go with me and her first response was "no" because she "didn't want to." It really upset me because I hardly ask her to take me anywhere and it's only about 15 minutes away and this is a one occasion thing. Finally she said maybe she will drop me off. Then the following weekend I will miss church because we will be in San Francisco. I'd rather not miss church two weeks in a row:-/

The Pet Expo was fun, but very overloading due to the crowds. It was nice to see all the animals and pet them. I cried a little because so many were up for adoption and needed homes. If I could afford it and knew I didn't have to move into an apartment soon I would have probably tried to adopt another cat or even a dog. They were all so cute. There were rabbits, a guinea pig, and sugar gliders, too. Michael really wanted to go to the Pet Expo, but didn't think I would be willing to go this year since I have a bad memory of it from last year, but Michael really wanted to go and I didn't want him to be sad so I said I would go. I'm glad I did. I get lost very easily, so Michael led me around the huge building. I bet he will be leading me around the streets of San Francisco, too. I get turned around easily. Oh yes! And a cockatoo sat on Michael's shoulder and said "hello" twice:-) He can also say "hi" and "I love you." It was really cute.
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1. Browsing Target (tempted to buy a dress and Jenga)
2. Michael buying me a maple cream chocolate (yummy!)
3. Watching Care Bears
4. Reading Vampire Diaries The Return: Midnight and A Field Guide to Otherkin
5. Making it back safely and seeing my cats

Note: Mrs. Bates seems to be constipated. She's the one pooping everywhere. I'm going to just give them wet food and water and see if that helps, otherwise we will take her to Michael's vet after his car is fixed.
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My mother says I wouldn't like Texas -- or at least not the parts they went to (including Houston). But the area they were at had been hit by a hurricane a couple years ago, so that could be part of why there were so many stray, wild animals everywhere. There was a black labrador with two puppies that were going into the remains of a house and the full-grown dog/mother was snarling and barking at my mother and her boyfriend even when they weren't at all close and were walking away. My mother said if she could have she would have taken in the puppies, even if the mother, if the mother wasn't acting so "nutty."

Seeing all the street dogs and cats reminded her of Mrs. Bates, who was also a stray we rescued while traveling. Mrs. Bates was very good with humans, though. She had obviously been a cat with a home as she was spayed and declawed when we found her. She would meow a lot and we first found her begging two men for ice cream at Dairy Queen. She was very friendly and just wanted food. We thought she was a kitten because she had a very short, small build and was severely underweight (she weighed about 4lbs at the time). I convinced my mother to let me take her and she went crazy for my ice cream. She dove for it. She had PTSD, though, and was severely afraid of feet (she would attack them) and would hide from men for years. It seems likely that a man used to kick her. She's over all that now, though.
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I went from being in a terribly depressed mood the past three nights into an incredibly good mood tonight! I feel guilty for spending so much money this month on things I didn't need and I really want to save a little bit of money, but Christmas adventures seem more important! I want to go to a German Christmas festival in Chicago and look at all the crafts and other assorted goods. If I see something I really like and it's not too expensive Michael will buy it as an early birthday gift<3 My birthday is January 13, though I was due Christmas Eve (December 24). I also want to eat all the German foods listed by the vendors! I'm usually not an adventurous person when it comes to food, but I want to try the different desserts and meat-filled buns. Not the cheese or vegetable-filled buns, though. I also wish I could try the German hamburgers and potato pancakes. And I have a big craving for bratwurst now. I'm hoping this week I can get my mother to take me to the grocery store so I can get bratwurst and buns to put them on. That way I won't be tempted at the Christmas festival to get something I already know I like and can get at other times. Same with cheese strudel (if it is what I think it is, it is something cheese-like that I do consume). We might be able to go to this Christmas festival earlier in the day and then go to Lincoln Park Zoo at night for their lights festival (like the Brookfield Zoo thing I just went to). I will have to withdraw more money, but it would be worth it. At least I am 100% done with Christmas presents and just have to wrap some.

Also Michael was going to buy me the anime Romeo x Juliet for my birthday, but I can watch it on hulu.com and will only choose that over other things if I really, really like the series and feel I will rewatch it many times. I usually dread my birthday, but tonight I feel excited about it. Zyprexa must make me rapid cycle or something, because I am feeling insanely good right now. Though usually on Zyprexa my mood is stable (it's not like my mood is going up and down so much on a regular basis).
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Pictures! )
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Today I was quite anxious. This was due to some situations that make me very anxious normally, but I also might have forgotten to take Ritalin today. For me the greatest difference I notice with Ritalin now is that it helps my anxiety during the day. Michael and I left his house in the early afternoon and we had to do a bunch of errands and spending a lot of time in the car, pulling in and out of places, going on the highway, etc. all make me very anxious. I'm terrified of getting in another car accident. I also don't like being in stores sometimes because they are very chaotic with people circling around. We went inside two Walmarts, which is my most hated store (followed by grocery stores). Michael did buy me another junior-sized mocha milkshake for me from Steak n' Shake. I love them and they are so cheap in the afternoon when they are discounted.

I also was super anxious about voting because I worried there would be a line, especially as we arrived at my polling place (my old elementary school) shortly after school was dismissed and shortly before rush hour. I almost started crying because of it. But there was hardly anyone in the gym, where voting took place. So that went okay. Then we got home and had to take care of the animals and clean up. At first I was stressed, but after the cleaning was done and my things were put away I felt a lot calmer. I feel perfectly fine now -- better than most nights as of late.

We are watching The Facts of Life which is soothing to me. I didn't watch Who's the Boss? today because I just saw the final episode yesterday (which I've been waiting a long time to finally see!). Now it's starting over from the beginning and I've seen those episodes recently. I also saw The Nanny the past two nights and I've always really loved that show, even when it was still airing new episodes and I technically wasn't allowed to see if due to my strict father. Hopefully I can play that in the background tonight as I read or something:-) I'm glad to see my kitties again, though my house smells like cat no matter how much we clean it:( My old apartment always smelled fine so I'm hoping when I move back to an apartment I can prevent that musty cat smell from taking over.


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