Journey through Faerieland

Today I briefly went swimming in my mother's boyfriend's pool down the street. My new bathing suit seems to fit pretty well... Then we went grocery shopping and I bought a lot of relatively healthy foods since mostly I eat junk. I read more Russian fairy tales and streamed the movie Cyberbully which just came out on ABC Family. Michael and I might watch some anime tonight. My brother might sleep over tonight because there's no air-conditioning in my mother's house (there is in my house and my mother's boyfriend's house -- where my mother usually sleeps). I have had temptations to spend money, but so far have not given in. I'm going to do stretches now and draw a bit. My mood today has been pretty stable aside from the anxiety of leaving the house to go to the grocery store. I also had my credit card paid off online! It was taken out of my checking account. That will be an easier way to pay.

Yoga went well. I didn't find it difficult, except for the "tree" pose, because I apparently lack balance. I will have to work on that. The positions requiring more flexibility, though, I did well on. It will probably be my last class:( I don't think I will have transportation next week unless I can convince my mother to drop me off and pick me up. The weather tonight was terrible. There was snow and rain and lightening and thunder. I couldn't see the roads. I was quite terrified on the trip home. We made it home safely, obviously. I just ate dinner and I'm having dark chocolate peanut butter cups. I forgot another book Michael gave me around Christmas time/my birthday, so I started reading that -- Song of the Magdalene. It reads quite fast and it's short. I'm tired now. I probably won't go to bed too late. My anxiety is gone now that I am home and things are okay.

There was a huge storm last night that resulted in a power outage. I was worried about all our frozen and refrigerated foods (we just went to the grocery store). Also we have a well and septic field and when we don't have electricity we don't have running water. The toilet doesn't flush. That was disgusting, and worrisome, because we didn't know when the power would return. Michael's mother was just on her way to pick us up when the electricity came back on. I am relieved. Though I was really in the mood to go to Michael's and all packed up, so a little disappointed. Maybe I can go home with him soon. Anyways, I'm glad to be back! I was getting so anxious (not that it takes much). I wasn't gone that long, which shows me how addicted I am.

It's been raining all day and my mother's dog is afraid of the thunder. He's shivering on my lap. My mother left to go to a dinner event with her boyfriend. I've been playing some of the Nintendo DS game "My World, My Way" basically to earn money through fights. Fighting is my least favorite part of roleplaying games... I used to get my brother to do it for me. I am playing Robotech in the background now. I used to watch it on the Cartoon Network when I was 14. I love it<3 My stomach has been bothering me a lot today. I can't tell if I feel full, hungry, or just ill.

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I want it to be spring because spring is my favorite season:-) It fills me with hope, despite a lot of bad things for me typically happening in the spring. I like how it's starting to get warmer and greener and the sun is out more.

I'm so frustrated. I have so many leaves to pick up and Michael can't help me. To get outside help would cost probably $150. I'm offering my brother money to help me (less than $150, obviously). I hate this situation. I have to go back to the dentist, too, because my filled tooth hurts

There was a bad storm. Lightening struck some trees. The power was out. My computer got destroyed a bit. It's bad together now with someone's help and new parts, but I have to redownload all my programs and transfer all my information to a new hard drive. So it might be a few days before things are back to normal.

Apparently when most people lose power they do not also lose running water. And if you do lose running water the way we did, it doesn't mean the plumbing will burst and there will be floods if you flush a toilet, it just means there will be no more water, and you can pour containers of water as a source into toilets, sinks, bathtubs, etc. without anticipation of disaster. And we live in a populated area so you can't just relieve yourself outside (I would think you would get arrested for indecent exposure or something similar??) I did not realize these things until yesterday and spent much of my time worrying over these issues whenever I'd think of the other streets out of power and people on my own street out of power but without the ability to stay somewhere with electrical power. I was terribly worried about the tornado/storm situation and how it was interfering with people's lives. We have a well so I'm used to always losing running water when we lose power, but the two aren't inextricably linked. I suppose I learned a lot from this. My practical knowledge tends to be terribly limited... I'm back at my house. My cats really hated being alone so much the past few days; they love people.

I haven't felt well lately, probably due to my diet since the storm. I just feel too exhausted to think or even more. I'm in a very confused state right now (as in thinking is hard, not because there is a naturally confusing situation I am thinking of -- I don't know I would be able to think too far into such a thing at the moment!) I'm trying to read. I still feel horrible over how much I recently spent on books and I don't intend to do the same in the future anytime soon.