May. 3rd, 2010

unico_love: (childlike empress)
One goal I'm going to start working on, starting today, is cutting back on sweets and eating at least one fruit and one vegetable a day. I've been mainly eating apples because they last long, aren't too expensive, and contain some fiber. Ever since starting to recover from anorexia I've had constipation problems and eating healthier and drinking more water might help that.

Today two books arrived that I ordered: The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin and The How of Happiness by Sonia Lyubomirsky. I'm starting with The Happiness Project since I've read the whole blog (I think). So far since even before I came across the blog and was just doing "Ten Thousand Questions" I had determined a new major goal of being a happier person, which will also come with the great effects of influencing others with more positive energy, getting more done, and having better relationships. My Bipolar is pretty under control now, and my anxiety is pretty controlled with my pills. I'm not deeply depressed, just a bit stuck on old things I need to let go.

Some things I've been reading really hit me, like the fact that if you aren't busy enough you can get into negative thought loops. I haven't been keeping busy enough. I've been slacking off on art and writing and intend to increase my productivity in those areas. I'm also going to keep up with the reading and maybe take more notes on what I read, since I can learn from anything or come up with inspired ideas -- both by reading fiction and non-fiction. I also intend to exercise (at least stretches and simple ballet and yoga) every day for a short while and ride my bicycle twice a week if possible. I've already switched over into always getting dressed and putting on make up everyday because I heard it's better for your mood to always do your morning routine and get ready, even if you're staying at home. So far I think it's helping me and encouraging me to be more active. I intend to volunteer at the no-kill cat shelter after I return from Michael's next week. I will probably miss this month's orientation, though:( But they said I could also be individually trained. I mainly want to work with the cats directly (a cat socializer) or introducing prospective adopters to the cats. I also wouldn't mind feeding, but I would rather only do clean up if they really needed me to do that (I worry more about washing floors than cleaning litter boxes).

I'm feeling better about Amber and Tim and all my friends in general. As time passes I'm also slowly getting over Him. I don't want to hate him, but I do hope he goes through struggles until he learns what he's been doing is wrong and makes an effort to change his ways and to apologize to those he abused. I might still talk to people or write about when people bother me, but I will try to sound neutral instead of blameful and name calling. My psychologist thinks He is a narcissist (and several friends I've talked to about Him agree) and narcissists are usually pretty unhappy people, hiding their deep-down insecurities. I'd rather be me than him.

Good Day

May. 3rd, 2010 06:30 pm
unico_love: (Unico)
Today Michael and I went for a bike ride and I feel better knowing I exercised a decent amount today (though I will do stretches, etc. again tonight). I'm reading and watching more X-Files. My mood has been good. I think my natural mood is a bit elevated, but because of my bipolar it often sinks very low or my obsessions turn bad which makes my mood sink very low. When I have more positive obsessions (like in high school), even when things around me aren't great I'm still happy. I know I'll still be sensitive about a number of things, and I still have triggers I want to avoid, but I feel very determined to stay focused on happiness and accomplishing what is important to me. And every day I must remind myself that the only person I can change is myself, so I have to find ways to be happy that are based on things I do or ways of thinking I develop. I also went to the pet store today and got "Felidae" cat food instead of "Evo" cat food because it was much cheaper and "Felidae" is a good food, too, and my cats love it. They don't seem overjoyed at the expensive cat food I got them that's pure human-grade meat. I don't know why.
unico_love: (crystal ball)
For many years night has had a history of depressing me and making me anxious. That happened again tonight, after an episode of The X-Files that bothered me in particular. But we put on a David the Gnome dvd and I'm reading more of The Happiness Project and I'm starting to feel better. I just have to remember that these negative feelings will pass.
unico_love: (Delight)
1. Going on a long bike ride
2. Reading my first The Last Unicorn comic
3. My two books on happiness arriving (and started reading The Happiness Project)
4. Watching the beginning of Bottle Fairies
5. Feeling a bit melancholy tonight, but being able to cure it

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