Morning Anxiety

As usual, I still have morning free-floating anxiety so I am still taking my Klonopin and Buspar in the morning. I don't know why I have this problem -- I didn't use to have it. I would like to be productive right when I get up and get things out of the way, but my anxiety causes problems with that. I'm just going to keep working on calming myself and exercising and focusing on the positive. If I were anxious about a specific topic I would try and change any circumstances that might be causing my anxiety that I could fix, but it's really just a general, fuzzy anxiety.

What to do today (as lists help my anxiety):
1. Finish reading The Happiness Project
2. Read more of the Positivity blog
3. Put away my clothes in the right place
4. Clean out my bedroom garbage can
5. Write a poem
6. Brainstorm on how to carry on with my current short story
7. Find another ezine to submit to (a lot of them seem out of date when I randomly search)
8. Watch more of X-Files and Bottle Faries
9. Watch Glee or Lost, whichever Michael would prefer (probably Glee as he doesn't want the ending of Lost spoiled for him
10. Email friends
11. Make my regular journal posts
12. Go to the grocery store for better veggie burgers (the kind I used to get) and some produce
13. Do stretches and simple ballet/gymnastics warm up/cool down exercises
14. Put some of my paintings away
15. Decide on what to paint next (maybe outline painting or do an underpainting)

My Manuscript(s) Were Requested!

Today I got good news: A literary agency has requested to see my whole manuscript(s). I emailed them to ask if they have Open Office (since they stated in the email that they have almost all word processing programs). If they do have Open Office I can just send my manuscripts as they are now -- if they don't Michael and I will spend a long time copy and pasting my writing into Microsoft Word. I also have to answer a few questions in the body of my email (the manuscripts are sent as attachments). At first I was really happy they wanted to see my work, but then I got moody and stressed because I can't make documents from Open Office open properly in any other word processor, no matter what type of document I try saving it as. I don't know why this is. I should start using Microsoft Word more. Also maybe online I can find out how to save Open Office documents... Now I'm calmer. We went with my mother for a long bike ride and had ice cream (I had strawberry cheesecake). It's still a long way from having an agent, but at least it's a step in the right direction:-)

5 Gratitudes+5

1. Watching the old movie Forbidden Planet
2. Going for a long bike ride
3. My mother buying me strawberry cheesecake ice cream
4. Having a literary agency saying they want to see my whole manuscript(s)
5. Michael buying me some pears and veggie burgers
6. Finished reading The Happiness Project
7. Not feeling I looked fat today in the mirror of the ice cream parlor (despite wearing a white tank top and still having a puffy abdomen from my surgery)
8. Getting a new book from amazon.com in the mail and having a manga sent out by amazon today
9. Watching a new episode of Glee
10. Eating a bit better today (aside from the ice cream, I guess, but it was just one scoop)