True Love

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I do believe in both true love and love at first sight. However, I don't always view this as the person you will marry or even date. I believe you can feel this way about more than one person at once and have different roles in the relationships. I believe in life-long loving relationships and love that carries on beyond death. I also have experienced love at first sight, even if it wasn't a "dating" relationship always. I still felt an instant connection I would call "love." And I don't believe loving someone always means the relationship ends up great, I just believe it's an underlying feeling and an internal dedication, even if you can't be around that person (or at least not for long).

Time Travel

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For me, personally, I would relive age four because even in elementary school I had extreme nostalgia for age four. Despite my father's alcoholism and my family's financial problems, I had a very happy early childhood overall.

For going back further in time, I would choose to see the ancient Minoan (pre-Greek) Civilization because I've been fascinated by it for many years and would like to see what the daily life was like. There's still a lot of mysteries behind this civilization.

Random Stuff -- I'm Tired

I'm very tired. I feel like there are things I should be doing that I'm not doing. I'm hoping I regain more energy later tonight. I did work a bit on my llama painting and watch an episode of Hercules. I tried to take a nap but I have insomnia and, as usual, didn't fall asleep. I want to reread The Giver before I return it to the library (along with the two sequels). I will begin reading the rest of Fruits Basket online, too, and Kare Kano. I need to catch up on the last two episodes of Lost online. Michael has to try and exchange an anime series (Phoenix) that had a problem with one of the discs. That was rather disappointing as it seemed like an interesting series. We did get through the first two episodes. Michael goes home tomorrow and then I will work on typing up more of my poems.

5 Gratitudes

1. Rereading The Giver and skimming the sequels
2. Chocolate chip pancakes
3. Successful grocery shopping without a breakdown
4. My new birth controls are covered by Medicare
5. Painting the sky and outline of my llama painting

Fruits Basket -- Good Coming Out of Bad

"Even if you've never experienced the wonderful things in life, only after something has been contaminated and marred will it... become a beautiful thing. Pain can be healed with gentle care, darkness can be removed with sunlight. Don't underestimate the small things." -- Fruits Basket chapter 41, pg. 22

Usually I'm a perfectionist and if I make a mistake I can't get over it. I think I've ruined everything, including myself. I generally can't forgive myself. I stay gloomy about situations thinking they're hopeless. I should try and remember this, give myself more room to think of mistakes and bad experiences as opportunities for growth. Beauty might result from previously terrible things. Nothing is ever truly hopeless, and even small good things matter.