Journey through Faerieland

So far today has been going well and I've accomplished a lot. I just have to put away some of my clothes, and I will do that when I go change into my pajamas. I'm going to work on finishing reading my book soon and I've been playing Beauty and the Beast in the background. My appetite has been normal today (probably thanks to Ritalin LA) instead of overwhelming (due to Zyprexa, which I have to take because it's the only medication that really controls my Bipolar). I talked to Michael and want him to come visit me as soon as possible, but I may have to wait a couple days. Today he had his windshield replaced and it needed time to bond. Then he wants to get used to driving that car because he goes on the highways (alone) to visit me. But I'm not feeling as depressed today, so I'm doing better on my own. I'm not as upset at my painting as I was now that I've fixed it up some. Tomorrow I will paint the border. I edited the first 100 pages of my novel. I'm going to try to do 100 pages a day and once I get a hard copy of some suggestions I will go over it again. I really think I'm going to turn it into a duet of books, because I don't think I'm going to manage to cut the length in half, despite editing. My mother also made food for me today that I requested. It's basically buttered noodles with pieces of chicken in it.

Hopefully tonight will continue going well and calmly:) I'm going to write more poetry, too.

I came up with a new story idea that I think I might work on later today. I think I want it to take place around 100 years in the past, which is strange for me. I don't think I've written anything that was supposed to take place in the semi-recent past... It's not a fantasy story at all, but some of the plot devices are common to fairy tales. I also intend to read a lot more of The Year of the Flood. It is a really uncomfortable book to read. The world just sounds so gross. I will be glad when I finish the book. I've asked for more library books through interlibrary loan and I have some of my own books to still read. Someday this month (hopefully early) I will buy canvases to paint. I'm considering painting a person since that's what I've been practicing drawing (human anatomy).

Michael occasionally reads my poems, but mostly only if I show them to him directly. He, like me, isn't the best at giving constructive criticism. I, for instance, can suggest a better word if a word sounds off, or I can say where I get confused, but that's about where the help I can lend ends. Though I can think of lots of things to improve my own writing usually, or at least ways I could have done things differently.

Also I tend to have a lot of private references in my poetry which may lessen the impact for people reading my poems without that personal information. I know that's what happens with Michael. The poems about him allow him to see all kinds of tiny references, but poems on different topics we don't really talk about and that don't concern him leave him a little confused by some references. I like writing poetry that way, so I don't intend to change it. Though I want to branch out and write some more universally recognizable poetry (which I think I've started to do with my few nature poems). I really like writing poetry, though I'm bad at understanding a lot of other people's poems.

I'm having trouble concentrating. I think I finally copied all my poems! Now I just have to copy them all onto a thumb drive so I don't have to go through this process again. I'll save my pictures, too, and my other types of writing. I should really write another short story very soon. I have a list of ideas. Ideally I should write another novel soon, too, or at least get started on it. I like the idea for the one I worked on before, but it was too triggering and the material it reminded me of wasn't far in the past, and it's still not far enough in the past for me to work on it. So I will leave that story alone for now. And I have to figure out what kind of landscape I'm going to paint... I want it colorful as I do best with lots of color. The last one I did had a lot of shadow and I hate it.

The person I sent my hard drives to copy said my hard drives are blank:-( I lost all my poems July onward. I just have the ones in my notebooks and copied to LiveJournal. I will work on the project of copying them when I get back home (I just got to Michael's house). In a way I'm relieved. There's a lot that period of time those hard drives are from that I want to forget. I want to start over clean. I've written a lot of bad poetry just to get my feelings out, but I rather like some of my poems. I'm going to work hard on my poetry to make up for what was potentially lost.

I'm working on a long query for my memoir idea. The agency requires a much more thorough explanation of the work and how it fits in the literary world than most queries. This will be good for me as I'll have extra material to fall back on if I want to edit or improve my current memoir query. I don't know if this will go anywhere, but it is worth trying. I used to query years ago. I think I'm done working on it for today and will work on it more tomorrow (or maybe tonight).

I just realized a stupid grammatical error in one of my poems. I fixed it. When I write very fast that's bound to happen; there are a few grammar mistakes to which I am prone (except/accept being the one currently).

Today was a lazy day, but it went well. I've done quite a bit of reading, of course. I'm reading Philosophies of Love by Norton. It's really fascinating. I love reading about different theories and perspectives on love. It's nice to expand my view of things. I still have a lot of books to read and books from the library, but I'm slowly catching up. I might try and start writing a new short story tonight. My novel plans still exist and the novel was started awhile ago, but it's highly emotional for me, so this particular novel has been on hold for a year now. Lately it's been more poetry and short stories. Any practice is useful practice, though!

I'm still waiting for my Limited Edition of Tori Amos' Comic Book Tattoo to arrive:-P It's being sent from a comic shop that I think is using some type of really cheap and slow shipping. I canceled my amazon order because amazon seemed to be messing things up with that book (as they have with other limited edition books). I won't listen to Tori Amos until I get it because it makes me too anxious.