Falling Apart Is Inconvenient

[unico_love]

I wish I were by nature a calm and easy-going person who didn't have a panic attack every time things didn't go as planned. I get things very set in my mind and I hate change. When I'm anticipating something and a turn for the worse happens, I mentally and emotionally collapse. I can't handle the situation and I just want to thrust the situation into other people's hands so they can deal with it. I can be patient, I can be hardworking, but when my solid foundation has a crack in it I feel the whole building of myself and my world is collapsing. I obsess, I cry, I stay in bed, I run away until action can be taken, I fall to pieces. I wish this were something I outgrew. Maybe eventually this is an issue I will overcome but so far it's something that still plays a huge part in how I live my life (adding to my anxiety) and still causing me all kinds of practical problems.

Comments

[tothedreamtime.livejournal.com]

Awww ::hug:: It is okay that you get upset easily. Unexpected changes are stressful by nature. Maybe someday you will deal with it better. I deal much better with it than I used to. Always remember that you have people to help you when that happens. ^_^

[unico-love.livejournal.com]

Thank you:)

[kurara.livejournal.com]

you probably are by nature a calm and easy going person, but this problem around you is clouding this..

[unico-love.livejournal.com]

These problems come up a lot:(

[civetmoon.livejournal.com]

I can relate :( . It's tough. I try to logic myself out of panic and anxiety but it's a very difficult thing to do.

I feel like I am by nature a calm and easy going person, but like kurara said it's the anxiety that overshadows it. When you are feeling well you seem to be rather calm and easily pleased, at least from your posts, so maybe it is true of you also.

[unico-love.livejournal.com]

I can be easily pleased and calm, yes. I just have really bad anxiety:P