unico_love | The Help of Kierkegaard (Reply)

I forgot when I was really depressed how much better reading Kierkegaard could make me feel. Looking back on everything that has happened recently, I possibly relate even better to what Kierkegaard wrote. It all makes sense to me in my life and my hardest times, as well as my ideals and highest goals. There's still a lot more by him I want to read... My approach toward life and my more religious experiences make sense and fit very well with his ideas (and his experiences in some ways, from what little I know of his actual life experiences...) Focusing on all of that, his philosophy and my feelings/thoughts in my greatest and most transcendent states of mind, helps me move forward and not shatter so terrible. It all reminds me of how I blow things out of proportion, hyperfocus on details that really don't affect (or at least don't hurt) anyone but me. I need to "get over myself" in a lot of ways, get out of myself instead of dwelling on the past and getting lost in my emotions and desires. I know I'm not the most selfish person ever to exist, I'm not saying that or making some kind of exaggeration, but there is a distinct correlation between my deepest points of selfishness/self-centered concern and my deepest depression/most cruel acts. The more I feel I'm transcending my "self," the more relaxed and strong I feel. I don't know, I just hope someday to become a better person. There are so many things I am trying to work on and be aware of.