My Weekend and Week So Far

Saturday I went to Madison. My uncle's party was kind of depressing, since he had to announce to everyone that he had cancer. I feel like my mother's family is nearly died off, and my father's family is mostly a bunch of psychopathic addicts, so it feels very foreboding in a way. The party became too overstimulating for me and I went early to my friend's house to go with his family to see a play. Unfortunately, of course, I got sick and vomited at his house right before we had to leave. And I felt like I would probably keep getting sick, so my mother had to come pick me up and take me back to the hotel. It might have been something migraine-related... Lights and noises did start feeling more intense and blurry at the party, though I'd assumed that was all just overstimulation. And my head felt bad/weird and I just felt sick the whole night.

My mother just made a general appointment for me to see a doctor for my skin problems, and I keep considering canceling it, but maybe I could also talk to her about my stomach problems and how I'm always getting sick. I hate having my life revolve around preparing myself and changing plans because I don't want to have an accident and vomit in an inappropriate or public place...

I'm really exhausted right now. I have seen a whole bunch of movies the past few days with a friend. Now I'm listening to more Tom Waits music he introduced me too. Happily, Tom Waits also makes me think of Alaska and sand_piper now, as well, because her family listens to Tom Waits:-) The music is dark, but I have overall a lot of pleasant associations with it. It's more entertaining than anything, where the songs are like miniature plays.