Anxiety about Cleaning the Cat Shelter

[unico_love]

I took a Klonopin because I was feeling scared of cleaning the cat shelter tomorrow; I feel guilty. I feel like I should just learn to tolerate my anxiety and work through it. I am going to go help out tomorrow, no matter what my anxiety, and I will take another Klonopin if I have to, but I'm trying not to take it if I don't need it. I am not good at dealing with new situations or making mistakes and I don't know the process of cleaning the cat shelter very well. I don't know if I have social phobia so much as a big fear of making mistakes or getting in the way or letting people down. I don't worry about how people see me -- I just want to not get in the way. I keep trying to remind myself that tomorrow will be a good experience for me. I took some 24 hour allergy medication just now, in case it makes me tired. I keep reminding myself, also, that cleaning the shelter is very important for the cats and a very important task. I think the presence of the cats, especially the affectionate cats, might soothe me while I'm doing my tasks. If my allergies aren't too bad I will stay after a little bit to give the cats some attention (especially Bruiser).