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It's hard for me to post about things making me happy without just turning them into gratitude posts... I want there to be a difference. Anyways, I'm feeling a lot better about Amber recently. I do think of her a lot and just wrote her a (regular) letter, but I know I have to be patient with her and I'm very glad we email and are on good terms with each other. Facebook allows me more insight into her life and to see pictures (mainly of her horses, one of whom I've met). Maybe my relationship with Amber isn't what I'd ideally like it to be right now, but it's good and could very well improve in the future. I also like talking to her husband. He seems caring and patient.
Yesterday at the scrapbooking party Phil offered to drive me home whenever I needed to which was very sweet and considerate. It helped me to calm down and enjoy the rest of my time there. I'm really lucky to have April and Phil as friends. They don't stress me out, I get to do new activities with them in a comfortable environment, and I have fond memories featuring them. I do wish I had more friends in the area, but having Michael, April, and Phil is very comforting and fulfilling.
I might also start penpaling with more people. I have a list of two new names (one of a girl I went to college with). I'd like to mail letters and maybe we can also email or add each other on Facebook. I don't have too many Facebook friends, but I like the ones I have:-) I wish more people from my past would add me. I'm too shy and insecure to add many people myself. I know that's something I need to work on. Rejection isn't the end of the world.
I can't wait until Michael moves in so he can have his space and I can have mine. Then I will write more while he is around and just in his own room. When he visits I tend to write less since typing bothers him and we're often doing things together. I look forward to sharing a life with him and things will be fun. I especially look forward to showing him Disney World! We will probably go late September of 2011. I'm already excited about it! Disney World has fond memories for me and it's a sanctuary. I feel safe and loving there. I've been going there since infancy.
Overall my life is pretty good now, but I have to work on my anxiety levels. I get anxiety about getting anxiety (I think I get anxiety in fear of having panic attacks, like in Panic Disorder). Fortunately my anxiety medication greatly helps me.
Yesterday at the scrapbooking party Phil offered to drive me home whenever I needed to which was very sweet and considerate. It helped me to calm down and enjoy the rest of my time there. I'm really lucky to have April and Phil as friends. They don't stress me out, I get to do new activities with them in a comfortable environment, and I have fond memories featuring them. I do wish I had more friends in the area, but having Michael, April, and Phil is very comforting and fulfilling.
I might also start penpaling with more people. I have a list of two new names (one of a girl I went to college with). I'd like to mail letters and maybe we can also email or add each other on Facebook. I don't have too many Facebook friends, but I like the ones I have:-) I wish more people from my past would add me. I'm too shy and insecure to add many people myself. I know that's something I need to work on. Rejection isn't the end of the world.
I can't wait until Michael moves in so he can have his space and I can have mine. Then I will write more while he is around and just in his own room. When he visits I tend to write less since typing bothers him and we're often doing things together. I look forward to sharing a life with him and things will be fun. I especially look forward to showing him Disney World! We will probably go late September of 2011. I'm already excited about it! Disney World has fond memories for me and it's a sanctuary. I feel safe and loving there. I've been going there since infancy.
Overall my life is pretty good now, but I have to work on my anxiety levels. I get anxiety about getting anxiety (I think I get anxiety in fear of having panic attacks, like in Panic Disorder). Fortunately my anxiety medication greatly helps me.
