Okay Day, Nothing Special

[unico_love]

I'm trying to do some cleaning and completing of some tasks. Small steps toward organization. Tomorrow if all goes well I will be going to see a friend, and Wednesday is my doctor's appointment (one month since my last one, about my stomach/abdominal issues). I keep going back and forth mentally about how I should even try to describe what I feel physically. If I feel okay at a specific moment in time I tend to think there's no issue at all; I should cancel my doctor's appointment. Then I'm throwing up and doubled over with abdominal cramps for no obvious reason, and I just want someone to stick me with needles filled with painkillers and nausea medication. Today has been a good day for me physically, so it is a day where I feel like a hypochondriac. It's true, though, that even on these good days I do spend hours in the morning quite nauseated, but if I can manage to sleep I don't notice it, and even if I'm just half-asleep it's all a blur. Just so long as I don't have to stand up...

We shall see. I know my doctor wants to run more tests on me, but I feel like a hypochondriac (as I said); I was raised to think that way. When I went spontaneously blind in one eye my mother thought I made it up for attention (I'm not sure why, as you can't even get out of school for suddenly being blind in one eye... Not unless you're getting surgery (which I did, to reattach my retina, maybe six months after it happened and I finally remembered to bring it up to the optometrist -- who didn't notice my left eye blindness at my previous appointment).) Oh, memories.

Comments

[queen-lily-rose.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* I Know Just How You Feel.

[unico-love.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm sorry that on top of being sick all the time you also have to worry about these things along with it:(

[queen-lily-rose.livejournal.com]

I Could Say The Same To You! Feel Better, Luv!