Exhausted

[unico_love]

I think I'm mentally exhausted from a whole bunch of things, some things more long-lasting or slow-recovering things. My art class is 2 1/2 long but I'm really exhausted the rest of the night and the following day. I think I'm adjusting to the class and teacher, though, and painting a little faster. My teacher liked my painting this time (and that I finished faster, I assume). I feel really restricted when I'm painting while being watched, especially whith someone very meticulous about painting and color theory (even though she says it's okay to "break the rules" with her instructions, I tend to feel that in her class I am supposed to follow those stated rules...) When I started painting with colors the way I ordinary like, my painting looked better and she liked it better. Some of her advice I don't really need, it's just that I end up not painting naturally due to being caught up in the steps for taking care of paints/preparing the paint/painting and color theory. That's frustrating because there is plenty of more useful advice I'm sure she could give me. I'm not taking the July or August class, I don't think, because I'm not sure of my plans. But I will probably take the fall class with the same teacher, so it is predictable and she can figure out more what kind of assistance I need.

So many things feel so far away right now... I feel like I'm in a bubble while everyone else is outside together, somehow. But I'm too exhausted to move much right now...

Comments

[spacecoyotevega.livejournal.com]

What you've been walking through the past few days- I think you're allowed to be exhausted.

*hugs*

[spacecoyotevega.livejournal.com]

(sorry speech patterns are getting a little weird- missing sleep is starting to get to me. :p)

[unico-love.livejournal.com]

*hugs* (And no problem, I always mix up my speech/writing!)

[irukai.livejournal.com]

I feel the same way about art classes, and it's why I'm not an art major anymore... and I also had meltdowns in art classes. I still don't know why I did.

[unico-love.livejournal.com]

That's too bad:-( At least you can still do art on your own.