My Laptop Computer, Skipping my Art Class

[unico_love]

I'm trying to hook up my old laptop to do writing on it, because it's very stressful to do creative writing at my desk. Unfortunately, I always have problems with my laptop computers shutting off spontaneously (from overheating or something). I can't remember if I took this one in to get fixed right before I got my regular computer... I will try to keep it on a cooler/more ventilated surface and see if that helps, and my word processor automatically recovers files. But it's still a bit frustrating...:-/

I think I'm going to just skip the art class I enrolled in. It's not that many sessions and I missed the first two already (it's only once a week). I really like to be familiar with situations before I get into them fully because I get so confused and overwhelmed. I think I would feel disruptive and confused trying to join the class after missing the first two classes. I don't know the teacher at all, and I want to avoid making this place a place filled with bad memories (I had a meltdown the one day I had been in this place, years ago, which unsettles me enough as it is -- I was scolded for following instructions too literally and I'm ridiculously hypersensitive). It's not too expensive, so I might try an art class again in the summer or something. As long as I'm not feeling sick anymore by that point, and have gotten beyond crying every day/feeling really overstimulated just by existing. I just need more outside feedback about my art and how to improve it; I have very little post-high school art training (basically none).

I try to be responsible and fulfill my responsibilities, but it's really hard for me to convince myself to go to this art class when it's not affecting anyone but myself, and it's not even going to impact my own life much. I just can't work up enough reasons to care about it right now.

Comments

[sand-piper.livejournal.com]

Wow! I think that just signing up to take a class in a place where you've already had a meltdown previously is in itself a big step!

I always feel weird about thinking about going to the place where Contessa lives now, because of the miserable memories I have of when I first moved her there upon selling her.

If you want to do the work for the current class, are you able to get the professor's email address? Perhaps you could explain that you were unable to attend the first two sessions, and she could email you the assignments? Or maybe she could video tape her lectures so you can watch them from home?? :D That would be awesome. Maybe if you are signed up as having a disability with the school, they could arrange for that to happen! Then you wouldn't need to attend the class ever--just get the video recordings of the lectures. (I've been learning about accomidations that people with disabilities can get, and that doesn't seem unreasonable to me :) )

[unico-love.livejournal.com]

It's actually just an art place, not like a college, so it's a lot less expensive, and not really "assignments." Maybe more like a park district class? Definitely no grades or anything like that. It's only four more class sessions, I think... I would feel weird:P

[sand-piper.livejournal.com]

Ah, okay. There is an art store nearby (or used to be) and through that establishment, classes were frequently offered. Is it like that?

[unico-love.livejournal.com]

Probably, though it's not an art store.