Excited about Disney World!

Today I've been feeling really excited about Disney World. I can't wait to go and I'm making all these plans. I wonder if my bipolar isn't really under control yet, because I was really upset and anxious yesterday and I'm really excited today. I don't usually rapid (or ultra rapid) cycle, but I have done that whenever I go off Zyprexa (probably more just me getting used to being off that medication). It is quite hot today and it rained a lot, which I like. Michael and I just went out. I wasted money buying a (small) mocha from Caribou Coffee, but it was good and I really wanted it. Now I'm very full. I'm still excited about Disney World:D I even want to move to Florida with my mother (who wants to move to Florida), but Michael doesn't want to:-( I would love to get a season pass for Disney World, but you have to be a Florida resident. I'm trying to tell Michael how exciting it is, and how paying for the Polynesian Resort is worth it, but he doesn't think it will amaze him the way it does me because, unlike me, he hasn't been going since his infancy. Now we're going to watch X-Files. I wrote one letter today and I will write two more letters later today. I also have to print out pictures.

Anxious Despite Feeling Pretty Good

Even though today went pretty well and I was quite excited about Disney World, I still had anxiety. It wasn't anxiety about anything in particular, and I wasn't obsessing over anything other than Disney World, it was just free-floating anxiety. I read that keeping busy helps worry and anxiety to decrease, but mostly today I've been focusing on watching X-Files. That doesn't keep my mind occupied enough and random thoughts enter my head and anxiety still ran rampant. I finally took a Klonopin, which I think is helping. I'm hoping as my body gets used to Geodon I won't feel as anxious. Anxiety is such a big problem for me. It's not always tied to depression, at all.

5 Gratitudes

1. Finished reading How to Stop Worrying and Start Living by Dale Carnegie, which had many useful things in it
2. Watched lots of X-Files
3. Having a milk chocolate mocha from Caribou Coffee
4. Feeling excited about Disney World
5. Getting some pictures printed and letters written