Computer, Tori Amos

So slowly my computer is getting better. I was really stressed out yesterday and I pretty much still am today. I have started a new book but I don't feel up to painting. Maybe if I'm all excited later I'll work on my short story. I feel so upset with myself when I think of all the things I could be doing and all the things i could be accomplishing when I'm just being slothful. I think part of it is how tired my medication makes me, because often I'm not slothful.

I was really upset that my computer's sound wasn't working at all until someone came out to help today. I listen to Tori Amos every day, most of the day, and I felt my routine was all messed up. I felt so anxious and disordered. I had been listening to her cd Little Earthquakes on repeat on my cd player until I ran out of batteries. Her music soothes me and the more I listen to it the more I feel I pick up on nuances that I can reflect on and relate to in some way, even if it's different from how Tori Amos originally intended. I was enthralled with the general sound of her music the first time I heard it. I'm also obsessing over Neil Gaiman still, and the two sometimes intertwine, which makes my patterning self happy:-) I ordered Tori Amos's Limited Edition of Comic Book Tattoo, I have her lyrics book and dvd set, I have her book Piece by Piece and I recently ordered "Images and Insights" which seems to have quotes by her and color photographs. Right now I'm reading the short story collection Sandman: Book of Dreams which is short stories inspired by Neil Gaiman's Endless of Sandman.