Thinking of How to Live my Life How I Want

Well I'm still tired, feeling a bit sick (I can't tell if it's a virus or what -- I'm just hoping I don't get really sick again while my mother is away). I keep going over exciting ideas in my head, and have all these plans of what I want to do. I'm hoping I soon regain my energy to accomplish more. I've been very overloaded for quite awhile now, and even aside from that I've been in a strange fog. I have both a long list of things I want to accomplish and get done in a more practical-sense and things I simply want to change about my life and lifestyle. I want to make my life more reflective of my ideals, and living the life I want to live. Sort of like living my own chosen fairy tale, in mostly very small, doable, and subtle ways. I could make many lists on this subject, and have to a certain extent... There are many people whose lifestyles I admire and wish I could adapt my own life to feel so contented and magical. I am usually a person that likes to actively do things, so I really hope to do more and more of this, adapting my life to my ideals and wishes. I still have some mental organizing to do. There are some people that when I think of them I am overwhelmed by happiness, calm, and admiration -- and even just excitement, feeling spurred on to live by my own aesthetic and ethical preferences. Usually the people I feel very strongly about give off a certain aura of joy to me (even if they are not "happy" at a specific point in time). And usually the people I am most inspired by in an immediate sense, the people my thoughts always return to when I think of the changes I want to make in my own life, are people who appear to live by the types of aesthetic and ethical preferences I most naturally and happily possess. Many of the things I want to do or change are small, but even very small things tend to impact me greatly, emotionally and sensory-wise, so to me my lists are very important and potentially will have significant affects on me (not just lists of more universally "important" life changing items I hope for).

I'm going to try and keep making lists and writing down my ideas. I need a lot of mental organization still to get out of this fog. But emotionally the beginnings are there. And slowly my thoughts are congealing...

10 Anonymous Comments for 10 People on Friendslist

I am doing the meme where you write ten (positive) comments about ten different people on your friendslist. Some of these people I know in real life, others I don't. I have no idea how easy they would be to guess or not. You are welcome to guess, whether you think it's yourself or someone else. I'm screening all comments, though, and they won't be made public, so it will remain a mystery over all. But if you want to guess and you're right, I will answer you in a screened comment.:-) I think a few of them are really obvious, and a few overlap a lot, because I wanted to give very similar comments to different people, whom I appreciate all as individuals, but there are similarities in why I like them and their journals so much (especially for my favorite journals). Hopefully that's not accidentally insulting:-)


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