unico_love | April's Scrapbooking Party

Today I went to a scrapbooking party for April at her father's house. I thought we would all just be scrapbooking, but it was kind of like a party where there is a host and a catalog of scrapbooking materials and you order certain things. I was the only one who didn't buy anything, which made me feel guilty, but I really have to save money this summer. I have to see the dentist Wednesday and I have no idea how much that will cost. I felt okay and friendly at first because I had taken Klonopin at home due to my anxiety about watching things (and Michael and I watched Tsubasa before April and Phil picked me up). However, after a couple hours I was starting to feel like I didn't know what to do -- I didn't really know the other people there or know what to talk about. Eventually I did get to scrapbook for a little bit. Then people started leaving and I was hoping we were going to be leaving because my anxiety had gotten pretty bad. I felt overloaded and overwhelmed because things weren't going as I expected and I'm not good with most surprises and I'm also usually not good with people. I also forgot my Buspar and Klonopin at home, so I had nothing to take for anxiety. However, I held out and after the guests left April's stepmother ordered pizza and we four (April's stepmother, Phil, April, and me) played cards and I felt calmer. I even ate a piece of pizza. Usually eating in front of people (especially strangers) is difficult for me. Then we did go home and I was glad to see Michael again. I did end up having fun with April and Phil and I was glad I didn't freak out and beg them to take me home or anything.