Confusion and Hope, Watercolor Painting

[unico_love]

Yesterday and the day before I was doing a lot of thinking (relatively hopeless and confused thinking) and felt bad about some things. And sometimes when I try to express myself rationally when I am feeling really bad about something, I still come across too hurtful (keep in mind, this isn't over factual stuff that has any real relevance outside of my life/some people in my life). I feel a bit more hopeful today, and it's easier for me to remember a lot of really good things that I would never want to lose. That usually happens after a scare of losing something or someone important (even just contemplating it or having an overwhelming fear or realization). I have been making lists, which helps me to feel less confused and helpless.

I'm going to work on a watercolor painting today I already sketched. I almost never use watercolor, and have never taken any lessons in it, so it might not be very good. I was inspired by civetmoon's wonderful watercolors, but the one I'm doing isn't fantasy-like at all (though it would be amazing to do more fantasy-like art, or create my own creatures, etc.) This is just a squirrel in a field. It will be autumn, probably:-) I will probably end up showing it here at some point.