Grateful for LiveJournal

Today we did a lot of cleaning up. I am going to Michael's house tomorrow and hope I can get more editing done on my story. I'm going more slowly now at editing it. I emailed a couple of old friends I have contact with through Facebook. I hope they email back. One lives in London. It would be nice to at least email with them. Sometimes I feel so different from people and that leads to distance... My life is not quite the ordinary life for a person my age. My past was strange and a lot of things that I enjoy or are important to me aren't shared by others. I love how LiveJournal allows you to contact people who do have some similarity in common with you, so you can feel like you relate to a lot of people. I feel a lot less lonely with LiveJournal. I don't dislike people, I just don't really know how to speak to them, especially if I don't know them well and we don't have a lot in common. It's easier when I'm hypomanic/manic. But those phases usually turn into severe depression that lasts a long time. I am feeling pretty okay mood-wise lately. I get bad anxiety in the mornings and filled with bad memories, but my medication works. I think things are headed in the right direction, though, with my life...

5 Gratitudes

1. Cleaning up the backroom and moving a bookcase back there.
2. Watching cute episodes of Hime-chan's Ribbon.
3. Having chicken and Spanish rice for dinner.
4. Getting my hard copies of edits of my last novel in the mail
5. Feeling okay about my size.