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I think I'm an optimist, especially for anything not directly concerning me. I'm very optimistic about other people's lives for instance, and this is probably why I sometimes feel envy (I'm so sure other people will be okay and less sure I will be okay). I can get very optimistic about things in my life, though, too, and I get very disappointed when things don't go as I had hoped. I am prone to extreme depression and feeling helpless then. I try to be a realist about things, but my hopes always seep in. Even when I'm suicidally depressed, I still have that bit of hope that makes things even more painful and causes me to have a hard time "moving on." I'm not good at being a realist and even when I'm depressed I only get pessimistic in the extreme ("I need to die now") as opposed to just thinking a person or a situation is somehow bad. I used to be an extremely optimistic person when I was 18 and basically hypomanic/super happy. I still have wonderful memories of that time... I even have wonderful memories of things I didn't fully appreciate when I was depressed. Despite my bouts of anxiety and depression, I rarely have fully formed thoughts of things going wrong, either. Overall, I tend to be an optimist, for better or for worse.
I think I'm an optimist, especially for anything not directly concerning me. I'm very optimistic about other people's lives for instance, and this is probably why I sometimes feel envy (I'm so sure other people will be okay and less sure I will be okay). I can get very optimistic about things in my life, though, too, and I get very disappointed when things don't go as I had hoped. I am prone to extreme depression and feeling helpless then. I try to be a realist about things, but my hopes always seep in. Even when I'm suicidally depressed, I still have that bit of hope that makes things even more painful and causes me to have a hard time "moving on." I'm not good at being a realist and even when I'm depressed I only get pessimistic in the extreme ("I need to die now") as opposed to just thinking a person or a situation is somehow bad. I used to be an extremely optimistic person when I was 18 and basically hypomanic/super happy. I still have wonderful memories of that time... I even have wonderful memories of things I didn't fully appreciate when I was depressed. Despite my bouts of anxiety and depression, I rarely have fully formed thoughts of things going wrong, either. Overall, I tend to be an optimist, for better or for worse.
